Time for the serious.
You know how most people go through life just taking paths aimlessly and never really knowing where they will end up at the end. Sometimes I sit back and think about that. One decision made 5 years ago can effect the entire outcome of the rest of my life. I wonder if I made all the right decisions constantly, it always seems to be in the back of my head. I don’t ever regret any of the decisions I made because without those decisions I wouldn’t be who I am. I would be a completely different person and I think that would be more horrible than most people realize. If you aren’t “you” then who are you? Just another nameless face in the crowd. I only started thinking about this because my fiancee wrote me something for my birthday and it made me fall in love with her even more. Then I started thinking about the paths I took to end up meeting her. If I wasn’t such a nerd and into computer games I would never have been on a private server so long ago, I wouldn’t have met the friend that introduced us there, I would never have even known about her. Then I think about the decision to take her out to the movies and to eat at the mall. She was supposed to pay for food that day, she didn’t cause she is a major butthead. It was the most awkward thing ever, at the end of the day I highly doubted I would see her again but as she waited for the bus to bring her home I made another decision. I decided to make her let me bring her home, I’m not sure if that helped our relationship any but it was a decision made. After all of that I decided I wanted another chance, I know I’m not the best looking guy, not the richest, the smartest, even the most easy to get along with. But my decision was made, I had to cook her dinner at my house, I just had to find a way to convince her to come. If any of those choices were made differently would we still be together right now, engaged to be married, completely in love. I am happy for every decision I made in my life up until this point, because any small change and I would not be with an amazing, extremely caring, wonderful, beautiful girl. There really isn’t much I can say about her that I haven’t already said before. I just know that I am completely head over heels for her and I want to be with her for as long as is humanly possible. She really has no idea how she makes me feel, nobody really does because it is really hard to actually put into words. I could write entire books worth of good things about her and it still wouldn’t be enough. Anyway I think you guys are probably tired of reading my stuff so I’ll end it here for now. But be prepared, I will have more serious more often now. Of course it will be mixed with the not so serious. Gotta have balance and all you know.
